“Matilda, where do you see yourself after six years, what do you see yourself doing?” Isa would often ask me. And I’d just sluggishly say something nonchalant like “I dunno, maybe in my husband’s house”, then I’d giggle, knowing fully well he was offended about this slothful attitude I suddenly cultivated towards my life…
The eve of my birthday got me soliloquizing and asking really personal questions, some more rhetorical than not. One thing I was sure of, the indolent moments were gone, concrete resolutions to secure my future had to be made, enough with the “I dunnos”, come-on I’m three years older than my mum was when she got married, under normal circumstances, I should be able to host a family, so why so unserious?
Really, where do I see myself after the next six years? What do I wonna do with my life? Where do I wonna settle? What kinda person do I wonna settle with? Am I gonna be dependent forever? What have I done to see that my dream for A-T-4-G project gets accomplished? Will I just sit down doing nothing at all and continue blaming so, so and so for the serene and calm environment I’ve found myself? What can I, who can I, how can I, what if…??? I’M TOO YOUNG!
Amidst all these uncertainties, The Word came to me again from Jeremiah 1:5-10
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.” “Ah, Sovereign Lord,” I said, “I do not know how to speak; I am only a child.” But the Lord said to me, “Do not say, ‘I am only a child.’ You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the Lord. Then the Lord reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, “Now, I have put my words in your mouth. See, today I appoint you over nations and kingdoms to uproot and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant.”
Wow! More than half of my worries done with, thanks Lord 😉 God’s really involved in every aspect of my life. Apparently He’s sent me to be a warrior on earth, the lioness of the tribe of Judah, His very own princess. I’m for exploits, miracles, signs and wonders.
Now I know that after the next six years, getting married isn’t the first thing on the list anymore (honestly, I need not bother about what God has already planned, after all, my worrying wouldn’t hasten anything, would it? Besides why rush and get into something with someone you aren’t sure is part of God’s will for you?).
Whatever happens after the next six years, would arise from what happens within these years (mornings don’t just happen; they have an origin – night!). For me, my time spent in school must be fruitful. Hard work aint an option, it’s a must. Forming beautiful, healthy and meaningful relationships with purpose-minded, goal-oriented people is an excellent ingredient too; I’ve gotta hobnob with the right crew… yup yup! I have to always make myself ready and available to opportunities kuz believe me, ‘Mr. Opportunity’ won’t come in that sweet tux, with the macho body and baritone voice saying, “hello Fafa, I’m Mr. Opportunity, use me!” He’s that voiceless, bodyless, noiseless chance that sneaks in and out at will.
“But then, my location seems to be a barrier, it’s too calm, too serene, no churches around, no opportunities, no connections, infact nothing works here”, I thought to myself. Again, an opposing voice within me said, “Jesus could have said he had no car, no phones, no ipads or blackberries to broadcast His ministry to the world, yet see what He and the many other great Bible heroes were able to accomplish in their time till now, what exactly is your excuse again?” hehehe… get yourself to work Fafa!
Living a life on purpose is the most important gift I can give myself. It’s very abnormal and poor-minded of me to just live every day without knowing what God wants me to do with my life. On this day, I’ve made resolutions, written them down most importantly… Habakkuk 2:2&3
“Write down the revelation and make it plain on tablets so that a herald may run with it. For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay.
Today, being my birthday, the most important thing I’ve taught myself is that God (which also translates to success) is everywhere and I can live, doing exploits for Him wherever I am in this world. I’ve got no excuse for failure or a wacked life but I’ve sure got stories to tell about the road to success when I eventually get there. I’m not gonna miss the whole idea though, it’s all about God; it has always been and will continue to be.
Thank you sweet Jesus for a year more (in Stavropol, Russia).
Thank you dear Daddy for my awesome family, relatives and friends.
Thank you wonderful Lord for the love for medicine and other talents.
Thank you precious Father for love, wisdom, sound teaching and direction.
Thank you beautiful King for using me for exploits in your kingdom, I’m honoured!
#Sha mimi ya, Aondo-Faeren-Amo, man me wuese wen gbem sha won cii!!!#
#Truly, God knows how to treat me right and I’d worship Him forever#